This writing today was gladly shared with a willingness to ask. (From a
comment thread here)
Dave said:
I hear you Binra. Your last word was integrity. Can we start there? If
some have none of it, what do you suppose I owe them? Do I owe them
communication at the very least? Isn't communication a two way street,
listening as well as conveying? And what of sanity? Who should define
it?
Can you see that human consciousness and indeed human communication
operates a masked world - which includes the mimicking or the attempt to
make an 'integrity' of a mask?
That in the world we become so
confused in our identity that we often have reacted from the mask as if
it were our true word and reacted to another's mask as if it were their
true word?
So listening with discernment has to begin from a
place that is itself awake or of a willingness that is open to the
promptings and noticings of That in us which is of an integrated and
integral awareness; of that which IS communication, rather than an
attempt to DO or coerce communication to fit our filters of demand or
expectation.
In some sense we all construct a self for ourself
out of our predilections, our upbringing, and an ongoing adjustment to
the world as we experience it - and if we become 'well adjusted' we can
live what Socrates called the 'unquestioned life'; a surface that never
gives way to reveal a depth.
So it will often be those who have
in some sense been broken, or passed through change in which their sense
of self - sanity and world - perception is fundamentally challenged.
For those who successfully mask their true presence behind a mentality
that convinces them that everything is as they believe it is are acting
out a script of which they are unaware.
What do you owe your self - or indeed your Self? This is the key to integrity.
If you honour, accept and appreciate the gift of life - that gives you
your self and includes your experience, then you live out from that
integral, integrated sense of congruency.
If you cheat or deny or
undermine yourself then you engage with thought and act that
dis-integrates you and gives a disconnected and struggling sense of self
- in an experience that doesn't feel like a communicating flow of
events but a problem to be solved in order to get your life back.
An interior awareness allows choice where otherwise is only reaction that operates as if it were free.
Those
who act or communicate without integrity can serve you in many ways -
but only if first your serve your self - with integrity. It is not for
me or you to live another's life or make their decisions and give them
our meanings - and the urge to do this rises from the sense of denial of
one's own deeper responsibility.
I notice that when I am aligned
in my being, I do not need others to fit into my 'plan' or scheme and
can thus listen receptively and discern better as to how to respond or
indeed whether to overtly respond. Giving as I would receive is the
basis of liberty - for if I would imprison you in concept, how can I
know myself free?
However, I do not have to associate with or agree
with or join with that which feels it has no belonging in my own
integrity of relation and indeed must exercise self-love in refusing to
engage in that which is both meaningless and undermining of integrity to
give energy and attention to.
I notice when I allow or
inadvertently choose awry from my integrity, that the world and even my
loved ones, immediately reflect back a lack of worth - and the
disposition to see 'what is wrong' with the other, or the world, works
as a kind of confused or reactive attempt to mitigate a conflicted sense
of myself - that I have taken seriously and locked down on.
This
answer is not perhaps what you expect or sought, because I am calling
attention to your relation within your self - as it corresponds with
whatever is going on and whoever your are with.
Communication in
its fullest meaning is never really interrupted, and is always in a
sense available to a willingness. You can use this to see that there is
always another perspective - another way of looking at - anything. The
way we choose to see anything and the experience it brings us, will be
uncovered as a freedom to give - if we loosen our own self-certainties
enough to rewaken an innocent curiosity.
What you give is up to
you. Absolutely up to you. There are all kinds of rules for thought and
behaviour, but those which resonate and reflect your innate integrity
will bring you to the trust in your own core vibrational knowing. While
we fear our own deceptions we cannot unselfconsciously trust the full
flow of our desire - yet exactly that is our joy in life - our freedom
to be what we are rather than to struggle in what we are not.
Just
as those who love each other do not interrupt its flow to stop and ask
the mind "what is love?" - so is it that those who become aware of
insanity are those who recognize in some sense they have lost it - or
lost awareness and integration of it. We get in the way of our own light
- and then lock down by blaming this block as our 'self'.
Yet
even a mask of a self has to copy, mimic or pass off as something that
is already true. If love were not already true where would rise an
attempt to fake it or make it or even deny it real?
Once we have
defined our self without integrity - we seek it as if we do not have it.
We try to integrate our mind such as we now feel split off and
threatened, but do so by rejecting all that we judge against and use
judgement as the coercive defence of our own sense of protection and
survival - as a separated mind (in a separate body in a world of
separate things that exists 'out there' as a sort of dead matter in empty nothingness.
To
come back into a true sanity requires we do nothing - not passivity -
but do nothing from the reactive or coercive assertion of a
dis-integrity. The saying "be still and know' is not about applied
rigidity, but an inner relaxation to an uncoercive appreciation. But of
course old habits are often deep set, so one's willingness to
reintegrate will encounter the 'disintegrities' that work to sabotage or
block or distort one's joy - one's essential communication in life.
many see these and use them as proof they are unworthy, have failed,
cant do it, blah blah blah. But it is up to you (or each of us) which
thoughts we listen to and validate.
So what about all these crappy, lacking, faulty, insane, deluded or evil human beings?
It
is up to you what you choose to give focus and relevance according to
the theme you are exploring. From my heart I feel to bring attention to
THAT we are free to choose and give trust to that in the light of a true
choice, the choice will be truly made. But don't be deceived by the
choices that the mask allows - for it only knows of its own defence.
That's what it was for and remains.
I don't communicate to the
mask - because it cannot hear. But the living ones who confuse the Life
with fearful definitions, are limiting themselves unknowing. One can
only communicate with a willingness or as an invitation to willingness.
the mask can only transact. There's nothing wrong with a subconscious
persona that reinforces and supports your focus and desire. But once
programmed with negative association it will seem to 'have a mind of its
own'. The more one fights it - the stronger it seems to become. One
'talks' to the subconscious by repetition of persistence and
consistency. Align therefore with what you really want (in any given
moment) so as to teach yourself what it is you want to learn.
The
mind wants to map and control and extract meaning for itself. But in
opening to the possibility of inspiration, it is the intuitive sense
that resonates with what is relevant as a communication now. It is
enough to 'get it' at a level that feels it and then that seed is your
own 'knowing' and works in you as you give it welcome and value it. I am
in a willingness to be helpful, not because you need it - but because I
recognize and embrace my need to extend it.
Without each other there
is no fight, nor is there any sharing in Light - in the recognitions
that cant be weaponized or marketed (though their forms can be used to
mean something else in the dark).
One way of looking at 'end
times' is to see it as a Time of Choice. I feel to live in the choice
that aligns most clearly with what it is that I am - and this is served
by the reflection-experience of what it is I am NOT as well as by
uncovering shared purpose in a greater communication than my 'little
mind' could even begin to imagine.
How this works out in practice -
for each of us - is an unfolding of the themes we are exploring as
experience - which is as deep and subtly glorious as one is willing to
allow. But this may only be as glimpses until the framework of a
coercive mentality is left unused; rendered obsolete through non use.
None the less, even a glimpse of a truly sane appreciation, is a life
changing event - or rather the releasing of the (insane) attempt to
change what Life Is, to a reintegrated Consciousness.
True
learning is joyful. Can we start with whatever degree or shred of
integrity we can live from - regardless of whatever past we feel defined
and limited by? Some will have none of it - and seek to hold us to our
past. They will be the ones who allow us to know we have moved on, when
we no longer react to their thoughts and acts as anything to do with who
and what we are - and if they are willing - we can extend a shared
sense of integrity to them in whatever way serves the moment - but not
as an attempt to prove we have it. That is how we 'lose' it or mask it.
Everyone
can smell a rat - that is to say - can pick up on a coercive intent. We
are experts - even children. Likewise everyone can discern integrity -
because it resonates one's own.
So why are we fooled except we are
distracted from noticing or too invested in our mask to allow it to
dissolve? See how the 'world works' and uncover the way the mind works -
without using what is revealed as a self-damnation or invalidation.
Honesty allows a spontaneous willingness to be curious and thus to
simply notice and express without side. In the sense that the world
defines it - honesty is impossible - because the world itself operates
as a deception. So rather than guarantee a fail in attempting the
impossible, embrace all that you are from a fresh perspective.
Your
definitions - your word - is what generates your unique experience. But
much of this is unconscious to a daily waking mind - but active none
the less. It isn't that there is an 'evil' mind in opposition to Life so
much as negatively defined and invalidated self which is rejected,
excluded and feared. A true communication can unravel a grievance to the
core recognition of Life Integrity - but only as willingness allows.
The hurt and rage of the human heart is not often felt to be truly
received, but often works contagion and recycles over and over, over and
over. One does not need to be clever to recognize insanity and desire
to be free of it.