Reflections on an expanding consciousness

NASA discovers a new radiation belt around the Earth

Because science looks 'outside' in a way that cuts off what then seems inside, it tries to reverse-engineer Life, The Universe and Everything, from the fragments of a Humpty Dumpty that wont go back together again.
Yet of course we are seeing a reflection of an extended range of perception and have all sorts of stirrings as a result.

I find it heartwarming to consider that what we take as our understanding - (which tends to a mechanical universe mechanically justifying mechanical processes - with a nod to the evolutionary marvel of human intelligence which is going to get to the bottom of it all - isn't it!) - what we take to be true - is only a partial perspective - and that new information comes up that has the potential to shift everything from what was thought to be a foundation.

Now I don't know when or how - or if - it will be scientifically uncovered - but there is something in the nature of awareness that interfaces with a movement that can never be defined or measured. It cant even be called a 'something' because awareness itself is its nature and expression - not merely as local Universe but of Individuality infinitely expressed. The Word gives Definition - that is - awareness knows itself through the object of its thought. However, when a mind elects to know itself AS its own thought rather than as the Process of recognition itself, behold! I make all things in my own image!
To cut a long story short, the collapse from the awareness of being - becomes a 'Big Bang' experience in self-limitation such that everything outside an immediate sense of identified control is withdrawn from and differentiated as other or 'not self' and the tiny mind amidst unconsciousness - which is 'born' of an unconsciousness of its true source-nature - becomes the 'discoverer' and 'explorer' of a reality of chaotic and frightening aspect. This is at times very thrilling, high stimulus, challenging and sensual - quite addictive in fact. But only as a grasping at a substitute for the sense of being that has been lost.

But is a way of using action and reaction to get a virtual sense of self from that blots out the subtler and unifying awareness of integrally being.
The virtual self experience is defended against what would undermine it and is generally focused on the gross aspects of a polarized experience - and yet this is a kind of unconsciousness and the subtler aspects invoke and connect with a wholeness of being that cannot be accounted for within the vocabulary of the gross tangibles - and so stories to convey the feeling came into being as carriers of a deeper knowing - that are not meant to be more than the envelope for the message.

The mind that equates itself with a meat brain is one that has not looked within - not within its own thinking - but within this moment of awareness to the source nature and condition that is modified as our perception experience - yet has not actually become anything else. The dream in which we are separated consciousnesses is by desire made unconscious. But as science is un-covering, we are not what we think we are - much less who. Right in the place where we thought we knew, a shift occurs that renders our foundations faulty. Not because something real moved - but because something unreal was uncovered to awareness.

The pervading fields that are at the edge of our visibility have particulate effects.
But rather than try to get ever more subtle leverages upon the material, energetic and biological world, why not open to the oneness of the particle and the wave. You are an expression of Being - both the Is that pervades all and the exact moment of being just this event. They are not two - and nor can what has been divided be put back together - because its indivisibility is already true. Man wants to recreate life and make and order it to his own control - but isn't that a really Big Clue! What kind of science comes out from a sense of awakened wonder? Good science - and I don't just mean good data - I mean work that truly serves an awakening humanity and not the prostitution of the mind for the indulgence of superficial and self destructive appetites. Go for it - it's alive! It Feels deeply inspiring. Yes good science also needs trustworthy data. But trust isn't just a method applied - its a discernment in a relational field. You cant cut out the living part and expect it to be real unless your goal is to be really dead!

This writing extends and magnifies a relational field -  it is tangible and yet only knowable by its effects. The defended mind keeps out that for which it cannot yet integrate - but it is being transformed from within by its own alignments with Life - such as to be resonant with qualities that before were not consciously available. Hence, inspiration, insight, recognition, discernment, convergence or coincidence of that which brings forth the next step, Self realisation (selfless and timeless awareness), Integrated Consciousness - that allows all aspects of a situation within itself and remains able to wash dishes, solve equations or whatever is called forth as one natural relational expression.

To meet the Need of our Times

This is a comment into one of many articles on Eastleigh by election (British politics)
As I say below - I don't address that level - but while in the arena of an article about our political, social and economic society, I felt some thoughts arise and let them write.

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Do our opinions constitute a process of discernment of truth? Do we put their opinion aside in order to see more clearly or simply seek support and ammunition for what we have already decided /been induced to think is  own thinking? Maybe such conditioning is already voting for something else to think for us? Democracy needs to be more than mob, but do we know how to communicate in ways that are self revealing and inspire trust instead of trial by combat?

Yet underneath it all something tends to work - enough at least to get from one thing to another - because here we are! And yet a superficial self-seeking unconsciousness piles up unpaid debts of more kinds than money. But at least we can pass on something to our children and their children. Perhaps opening such a can of worms is part of a deeper need for renewal. One cant just rebrand with a makeover and expect to stay in touch with reality - whatever that may be.

An individual who wants conflicting things and becomes fearful, can react in ways that compound confusion and induce guilt and yet more fear until something really breaks down and then they can calm down and honestly question their own thinking - all of it - even at its roots.  Without listening, isn't our mind is simply a conditioned defence mechanism  that can readily be manipulated to reaction? But is that just a front or a mask to keep the unwanted at bay?

Can such as we are, find a unified perspective within ourselves that has something to gift rather than trying to get? Or will such essentially be forced on us by having to 'adjust' to a reality that no longer supports our vanities? The big tar barrel that shuts up Messrs Tweedledee-dum is usually overwhelming force. I like to think one day it could be the true silence of not knowing - and needing to be the desire for help that uncovers what we need to know.

To meet the need of our times, we need to wake up and embody the characteristics that are missing or lacking. Trust and honesty being chief among them. Ultimately I don't care what packaging it comes in, I feel we need to relate together in a different way.
Vested interests that have power to protect their part against needed change are the last to come on board, and the mind that thinks to sit on the fence and make opinionated entertainments of life is one such.

Perhaps Tolkien was prescient in seeing the little people as the ones who would relinquish power. It cannot come from the 'top' down.
As long as we try to work out our mental health in the problems outside of us - it wont work except to keep those aspects of our mind that we hide, from being healed or wholed.

Not especially about UKIP or Eastleigh - but the Movement of change pervades all such instances - often under our noses unnoticed.

Sex is in the spotlight, so let's talk about it properly

Actually it isn't sex that is in the spotlight but sexually inappropriate or or abusive behaviour. I appreciated this article in the Guardian - and my comment is below.
Further down is two other responses to other commenters of the same article.

Thankyou for your article. The mind is full of tricks and is no more interested in honesty and transparency than is any other mode of control, for it can only achieve its trick in the dark. In an unconsciousness.

Manipulative intent is trying to gain power from another - and is an aspect of our mind that can be seen as sinful or perhaps as genetically honest - at least if it succeeds! (That is to say human nature can be believed to be fundamentally predatory. Or that beneath our veneer of pseudo-morality is a BEAST! - that must be forever whipped back under the lid of a 'sanity' forever at war with itself.

I feel that any urge to get from - rather than give and receive in true value - manifests as a distorted conception and perception of what Life truly Is. Of what we truly are as its expression. These cannot really be two distinct things.

The distortion is of a self perpetuating identification with guilt - (which includes worthlessness and inadequacy), and fear, (which includes false presentations, and uses guilt as a means of getting leverage).

We all can easily observe that impulse which seeks to get and have its own experience and uses Life - (others and the natural world) to get it. So we make alliances of mutual agreements and embody tacit conspiracies of a personal self interest. Some of it is conscious and some of that is socially acceptable, but most of it is unconscious programming or conditioning that arises from an experience of a lack of identity.

Power over another, like market forces, tends to balance out in a sort of mutual stalemate. Yet wherever there is opportunity, the seeds of a latent urge to GET, usurp the thinking so as to make justification within itself for what in open and shared awareness, it would find to be without foundation - and self (and other) destructive.

Everybody engages it nearly all the time, but it is invisible. Some kinds of such are openly indulged and others vilified.

Horsemeat is the least of what gets put round in place of value truly shared - but as you note, it is an indicator of a mentality.

The conditioned reaction is a thinking machine - not a man or a woman truly. It gives the notion of freedom to do and to get at cost of a true freedom to Be and to share.

Despite the masquerade of many layered defence mechanisms all firing off each other, Life and love happen here. How DO we actually MEET and grow in our capacity to be undefended in loving and caring with others who are also
exactly as we are, regardless of surface differences?

The new wine doesn't fit into old bottles - yet the mind tries to control - and sometimes callously and heartlessly, undermining or spoiling the very thing it thinks to 'love' or have. If instead of learning that its attempt is of a fundamental mistake in its own thinking, which can now change - it persists in interpreting itself as sinful and guilty - then it is split into the BEAST! and the Lid.

The 'lid' has to be maintained by sacrificing the BEAST! (in 'the other'), And especially blocking that which would expose the 'lid' as a lid.

The blame 'culture' (sic) becomes like the inquisition. Where anyone can call anyone into the process of Inquisition on even the tiniest or most spurious pretext. The the 'inquisitor' is certain of finding it in you because he/she believes it in himself and must put it on you to hide it - else he/she could not hate it so.
The wisdom and discernment that works to correct rather than take revenge, has to extend from a greater honesty than getting an outcome of merely personal satisfaction. The appeal for fanning and feeding the fires of outrage is a diabolic scam.
There is a way to bring the lie into the light, that is not itself a convoluted contagion of the same lie in different form and it starts with ourselves.
We can only grow the level of responsibility we have by accepting and embodying it. Blame is an entirely different dynamic - for it pretends to be what it is not. Real communication can address the fact without attacking the person. Blame justifies disrupting and denying communication by judging the guilty.
Ye have not, because you ask not, comes to mind. Being honest with our desire means being straight with ourselves and therefore with others. What we desire, we attract into our experience by wanting it.
When shit comes our way, we can either nurture grievance and recycle it or move through it. To move through triggered (de-lidded) fear and guilt is a profound journey because it release the surface compulsions and uncovers the conscious appreciation of a true integrity in life.
And I feel it altogether appropriate for honour to be restored to our sexual relations as part of honouring true communication and relationship as the context of our wellbeing.




@Discerning1 - Yes, when something occurs that doesn't fit our mind's continuity, it gets blanked = has no voice = shouldn't exist.

Social reality is adapted to - and adapts as a sort of mask. We learn to play and think we are solid - and then something happens that jolts us out of our sense of solidity.

It doesn't have to be traumatic. That's another layer that interprets it (in terms of a deeper unconscious script) and yet re-buries as too horrible to face.

I know your sense of not wanting to damage someone's reputation.
It is easy to be outside a moment and come up with what one should have done or not done. But life unfolds us as we are and not as we might fantasize ourselves to be. It is also easy to pretend one is without fault and be the first and the loudest to throw stones at others. But isn't that just another way to stay unconscious?

Events that threaten to undermine our integrity are those by which to awaken by standing in it. Our "No" whether verbal or by leaving the room, is a "Yes" to our being. When a lie meets a true  "No" it has to meet itself without supporting fantasy roles. The feeling of that is also the movement of integrity in the one holding themselves out of true. It's supposed to feel bad! But if we don't wake up to the alarm - then the mind can deliberately work to block the incoming honesty because it feels so bad - and so become addicted to whatever keeps blocking it out.
Which is just running away from the one thing that can truly help.
Sounds a bit like the human race!


@hoff1000 - Do you think it is possible that people in positions of power and trust haven't always fallen prey to this kind of thing - because it can happen both ways cant it? The aspirant can use whatever they can bring to bear to get advancement - which may use sex without actually offering it.

It might seem relatively harmless if its a 'win win' as you put it - but I leave the word 'seem' in there. If what you get is at the cost of your integrity - then you get to be hollow, false. Now not everyone cares about that in the short term because they want something more than they can afford but they're not thinking of payback time.

Those who complained by the way - are giving testimony that I don't know the details of, the context ,or any other evidence from anyone else that bears on the true nature of what occurred.

The thing about NOT communicating accurately about sex - or anything else that stirs the imagination - is that it titillates the imagination and millions start to populate an unfound case with their own fantasies - and react as if they are true!

The mind in its story : Mind revealed in Story

The mind in story is a mind both based upon, and conditioned or programmed by, an active and many layered process of definition and interpretation.
Insofar as it is engaged in exclusively identifying with an identity within its virtual narrative, it is unconscious or unaware of the wishes and desires that constitute the virtual narrative and seeks to prevail, over a sense of chaotic threat to its own existence. It thus identifies over and against that which it cannot control by identifying with a desire TO control.

Perceived reality and thus behavioural response to it, is thus a contest of determinations and definitions that establish a broad range of mutual agreements established in tacit collaboration towards maintaining the narrative of an independent definer and determiner of its own reality.

Thus mind seems to make its own reality, and validate it by apparently sharing it through a process of mutual persuasions, agreements and collaborations, excepting the alliances of such intent do not truly share more than a partial aspect of their minds in highly conditional terms of alliance. For in the onset of threat as a result of conditions not being met, the status and validity of the other, shifts  to be redefined in hateful or self rejecting terms.

But actually mind makes its own experience of reality as a result of setting up a sense of conflict within Mind - that is - within the undefined and undefinable, felt quality, of an indivisible self awareness. Whatever such pure awareness is, remains the undefinable true context of every experience, directly known or interpretively imagined via a derivative and conditional experience of self-limitation.

The narrative sense of mind in process of becoming in time and space is like an overlay of  images and meanings upon an omni-projecting light, such that, instead of recognising our nature in our thought, we identify with a false reflection and feel trapped within our own thought without recognizing our thought. For the true nature of mind is hidden to the desire that would make itself lord rather than express true authority. Self-making denies true authorship in which one recognizes one nature or light in all - (and in all its infinite expression)


(This was the first writing of which the The self in story - a narrative in observation replaced. Not because This was in any way less, but because I thought to write a short reference linking to a longer article here - but the short reference flowed to be its own article. This, though similar, still makes points that felt worthy of reflection and so I also include it here. The mind is not going to understand its way to realization, but it can understand why it cannot understand! Essentially it cannot stand apart as if outside and separate to all that it conceives and perceives. It can however, generate such an experience and believe it, and does so by believing it. Investment of attention is desire, and to give attention is to extend your presence. But to give the gift of you to what is not true is to place images upon the heart and make false association. The gift of you is the basis upon which you know that you are - as you are. But the giving and receiving of what cannot be truly shared is the way of believing that you are - as you are not! To rest in the moment and allow an intimacy of being, restores the mind to its true function - as the beholding and recognizing of You. At first this might not seem You - but Being or Spirit or God or the Buddha-Nature - or whatever cultural symbol serves your own acceptance. The important thing is allowing the sense of being in and of - without recoiling or controlling or interfering. This is an extension of trust - and that is the realignment of mind in Mind - or a coming back into our right mind - which is entirely capable of holding your current local or limited sense as one with your Universal Source and Nature, and bringing it to a true appreciation of life, as we are willing to receive it.

The self in story - a narrative in observation

Uncovering the living context beneath the narrative sense of being allows a reintegration of that which seemed lost or disconnected and thus of its perception or experience of being alive. The mind-in-story operates as a device through which we have an experience of self limitation within which, identifying with the mechanism, as oneself, engages a virtual or distorted and fragmented rendering of being.

This, in narrative terms is where a Singularity seemed to become a duality, from a movement of expansion and contraction - and subsequent fragmentation - or to put it the other way, where a mind seems to come into a separated sense of its own existence, upon the death or loss of unified and undefined being as a direct consequence of the wish and exercise of power over. The experience of self division gives rise to the attempt to rule. The split nature of the mind is such that guilt and fear arise as protecting and controlling devices relative to the ongoing wish for power. The imposition of a narrative sense upon what is native lawful and unified, becomes an unconsciousness, because truth that is simple awareness at rest in its own nature, MUST be denied or reinterpreted as to be rendered either unrecognizable - or in terms that validate what is essentially wishful thinking, but identified as one's self in guilt, fear and confusion.

This leads to an upside down or inside out scenario in which guilt and fear of power become the mechanism of believed power; the power to kill Life or Mind - yet also the power by which to prevail - albeit temporarily - as a separate mind in its own private experience.

The essentials of drama are all provided, the bid for power, the betrayal or abandonment, the loss and the suffering, the attempt to regain or the will to revenge - the sacrificial horror of the killing of the innocent - the watering of the roots of guilt. The righteous identity that needs evil or guilt in order to self-validate over and against.

This drama re-enacts itself unending until something stirs beneath the mind that thinks it is as it thinks it is. Honesty is not bases on narrative, but on a direct awareness - as a discernment occurring outside the realm of apparent control. We yield to it - or yield our own will in order to discern, to the degree our mind is able to accept - and this depends on its current investment in its own story as its self.

There is a process by which to heal the mind of unconscious divisions that play out over and over as 'the human condition', but it is not the exercise of a personal will prevailing over others in assertion of power. Nor of depersonalising this will in mechanisms of state or indeed of applying mechanical models for controlling mechanical process. Indeed there IS no mechanical way to relate, communicate, listen and discern and recognize wisdom. Yet in some sense we do so - DESPITE the imposition of such a mechanical process. Life still happens DESPITE our best attempts to control or have power over it. No one but has some sense of true blessing in their lives, however dark or difficult.

How much MORE can be revealed to our appreciation if we desisted from persisting in what doesn't work in the insane attempt to make it work?

We do need a new narrative basis for what life is, what we are and how to live together in law that serves all - and thus finds welcome in the hearts of all. But I do not see that this can arise from the persistence of a blindness to the true nature of our own 'identity' or mind. "Truth will 'out" because the lie becomes too convoluted and untenable to maintain. What I would say is that truth may humiliate - but that is not true. We are humbled of our self-image and thus open to see and recognize ourselves in others.

But Truth is not humbled or made small - for it is the light in which we live and of which we truly are. Unless we abide in a truly connected sense of being, we get lost in our own story and defend it against our truth. All of the abilities by which we try to control life become useful to a willingness to embody life. It is simply evident that the mind is deeply habituated to an addiction to its own story.

I am indicating the basis for awakening to a basis for a unified direction, regardless of what others may yet be willing to allow or accept as their own learning. The only certainty available to us is of our being itself. That this is brought into question sets the stage for self-certainties of belief or assertions of power.

But when our beliefs of self-assertion are released or paused in even a little true willingness, we receive in place a clearer perspective. This is a step at a time undoing or reconfiguring of the mind to a true alignment. We don't 'do' this but let it be done through us as we release identity in reaction.

When discerning the correction for behaviour that is harmful to oneself or others, we do need a process of correction and not a process of guilt and punishment. Correction is the process of coming into our right mind. This needs to apply to all involved and not focussed only on the one who is identified in the role of transgressor. It is appropriate to limit lawlessness by whatever means is proportionate. But the old 'law' of revenge is the worship of sin amidst a luxuriating in blame, in full justification for hate and the indulgence of the sense of power in personal terms.

As long as we appease the mind of war, we can have no peace - but only a phony and manipulated peace that lives in fear and distrust amidst an isolated and chaotic sense of threat. This may serve those who claim to offer protection, at a price, but actually undermines a true integrity of being. Yet the Integrity of Being itself - which is innate to being - remains un-coverable to a willingness and desire to live from it.

Guilt and fear present the most blocking device for the prevention of trusting and following an innocent curiosity. Truth is not truly obscured, but only wilfully so. Therefore to be curious allows the noticing of the wilful intent - and thus the opportunity to release it in favour of what is uncovered in the wisdom of our being - in place of an often unconscious fearful reaction. This is simply a conscious responsibility for our own mind that is a capacity for immediate discernment and release of an unreal or imaginative thought or intent, without requiring a process of mental self-validation. In effect to reconnect with a true sense of being is the condition in which all else will harmonize.

But the seeking out of guilt will ALWAYS find it - even if it only exists in the mind of the inquisitor. What we seek we ALWAYS find, and what we are finding is reliable witness to what we seek. The experience of finding conflicted and unfulfilling outcomes IS a reflection of conflicting goals. Until we wake up to what we are choosing to give and receive, we will not recognize what we do, and so are in need of forgiveness for an error of mis-identification from which confusion must proceed.

The alternative is the reinforcement of such an error in the minds of both the judging and the judged. There is nothing ultimately fixed or locked down about our mind apart from our own decision - which as an expression of mind is innately unlimited. Resting in such being allows a different basis for outcomes than an 'isolated chooser' amidst an obstacle course of fearful penalties.



I wrote this into an article 'A story can be more useful than math' in the FT

Wake up Narcissus! - (Black Mirror)

Media hypnosis may not be accurate as a term, but there is a kind of mass hynosis passing of as 'consciousness','culture', 'communication'and 'relationship. This virtual 'reality' is both the individual and collective ego - that is a kind of mask that becomes identified with and substitutes for reality - for consciously shared culture expressing true relations.

Technology is a mixed bag - because our mind is a mixed bag. The extended powers of communication and control are matched only by the ever mushrooming flood of distraction and misinformation along with a disappearance of privacy.

The illusion that has most glued to their internal screen is of the central character acting out an independence of power, prevailing over and succumbing to a current adversity in a never ending soap. It is a kind of tacitly shared unconsciousness in which a fantasy self can be indulged. But unconsciousness can hardly BE shared. It is a matter of all agreeing to 'look away' from what would upset our personal apple cart.

There is a degree of checks and balances within the game - that work to prevent or at least minimize the worst excesses of power. But these have increasingly been undermined by an ever more ungrounded mentality that is reflected in our current financial insanity.

The desire for unreal or fantasy experience - did I call it unconsciousness? - is provided for because it is demanded. One cannot make a horse drink. And the pattern of the mind in its passive aggressive split plays out as the victim and the victimizer, the controlled and the controlling - as a sort of war in which real communication is the first 'casualty' - because the desire to play the role is greater than the desire to be consciously whole in true relation. The stimulation of the dynamic of conflict is addictive and the addict lays waste to his or her life in a hollowing out of a madness given power over heart and mind.

Charlie Brooker's Black Mirror is one of the voices that doesn't simply extend a mesmeric invitation to unconsciousness - but prompts the viewer to wake up. To shift from passive stupor of 'accepted reality' into a responsibility of discernment. The mind-in-its-illusion doesn't want to wake up and will do anything to reassert 'control' - but the perspective of awakening is indeed freedom and is worth anything to abide in the full and hearty appreciation thereof!
Waking to fear is not all the way - the fear is an alarm to bring attention present and NOT a call to war. War is the mind in which communication has been usurped and denied. Just say no!
Speaking truth to 'power' is of a desire to heal and to share sanity. The insane are never wholly 'out there' for we are all subscribers to the fantasy channel but in various shifting alliances of a mask that keeps a true and present conscious-ness at at bay - on hold, out of sight.
These games always end in tears or in some prodigal wasteland.
But at least that cuts through at last to the heart that feels and reconnects with the stirring of truth remembered, beneath the great projection.
Look up, Narcissus! - one is not defined in reflected image and concept, but in love's true sharing, in innocence revealed. None is special, to be left out, so release the wish of a 'self-exceptionalism' and its lens darkly, and uncover a totally different purpose active in all things.
Thanks for your attention.