Wednesday, 5 September 2012

Satan? Deception, mind-stories and true intimacy

I chanced on this page when checking a bit on the origins of Lucifer and Satan. I always feel a quality I can relate with in a love of truth, so in that sense communication embodies a truth that cannot be itself spoken. Call it ‘one-mindedness’ or ‘of one kind’ or don’t call it anything. But this living context that we call ‘mind’ is not at all identical to anything that we think or define and accept it to be – yet it is the underlying truth in which stories in mind, belief and all experience are ‘played out’. Inseparably.

That the mind can deceive and be deceived is not in question, but the mind that can deceive and be deceived is NOT the mind beneath the stories of self and world. That true mind which I will now call Mind is the truth in which experience is had, indulged in or transcended – even if the experience is an effect using an imagination as a lens over truth.

Our stories are both personal and cultural, and constitute our self definitions and justifications in the context of an intolerable or denied sense of being. This may not be obvious because we WANT our stories to save or protect or mitigate our sense of dissonance, and so our human consciousness is fitted to look out through the lens of our stories rather than look at the filters of belief themselves.

There is a movement in Mind that is self-aware, it is inherent or innate to what Mind is. "Know Thyself", is an alpha and omega – (as well as the truth all the while one seems to know a something ‘else’).

Yet while an active preference for ‘knowing’ our own story prevails over knowing directly, we give ourselves an experience that ‘shares’ the sense of self that is gotten in stories. I say ‘shares’ because mutual agreement (or indeed interlocking shadow projections of mutual disagreement) do not constitute a true intimacy – but rather, it validates a sense of separated self by its thoughts – which is what maintains a virtual sense of self – as our ego or self image.

The capacity to ‘live’ in or through our stories; our ego, uses a defining and judging aspect of our mind. This capacity is limited, no matter how much force is brought to bear or how ingeniously we package and present a lack of real presence as if it were truly meaningful.

Self awareness – is simply noticing. And no matter how ingenious our defences are for maintaining our mind-in story, there are constant breaches through which we notice… that which undermines or fails to support our story-self. And the complexity and speed in which a protection of mind-in story works to deny, distract and reconfigure itself so as to appear continuous and real is witness to the power of Mind, even in the self-limiting act of asserting one’s own story-experience as true (For this inherently denies or discards a direct awareness of the true nature of Mind).

Now, I didn’t know what I was going to write when I started, but I see an attempt to sketch something that can serve awakening to an activity we are humanly and culturally disposed to render unconscious. To put 'out of mind', and also to awaken to and as the innocence and natural curiosity and delight of a direct relationship in and as an expression of Mind; an unselfconscious love.

We find a movement in our being that delights in stories, and we know we can enjoy them without mistaking them for reality, for they can reflect the innate qualities of Mind as well as the imagined attributes of a ‘free will’. But mind can also be conditioned, such as to program itself by its own choices, and become so engaged and identified in its story, that it becomes self destructive in guilt and via fear. A sense of invalidity and worthlessness of self that militantly denies love welcome and substitutes with token acts or sacrifices that are ‘loving’ in order to get.

Waking up, healing, reintegrating – these terms point to a release from a deception that is ultimately self-illusion – no matter how the story tells it. This is Good News, though we rarely want to hear it.

The purpose of the stories of the ego is in exploring and experiencing a sense of PERSONAL creation. It was an innocent act by which we frightened ourselves and became caught up in our own defences so as to commit to a false or mistaken sense of our self. All that came from that has never left its starting point.

Yet within our stories – personal and cultural – is the penetration of the movement of healing or awakening – and this is the purpose that guides the mind that thinks its name or nature is legion, to calm, to listen, to discern and to trust a true relationship in which its own true nature reveals itself in unified expression.

All things serve the purpose we are actively holding in our heart (regardless of the stories in our head). The wish to personally determine what is true established the mind or purpose of division and judgement; the mind of control. To every action there is reaction. If we make this mind real to us then we suffer its effects likewise!

Unified action is a movement of wholeness and not an imposed partiality. This is beyond concept but not beyond witnessing. We may uncover a willingness to pause, to truly or directly listen or notice, and to discern – that is – to FEEL the qualities that are present. In recognition of a reintegrated being we have a basis to trust the movement that is NOT the ‘will to control’ or prevail, but is the feeling of life in unified expression.

This gives embodiment to that which is felt as an expression of a truly shared worth and integrity of being.

The religious or spiritual urge at its root is the intuition of truth and not the attempt to define, map, explain or manipulate – but its spark is quickly covered in attempts to weave it into our story, to use it for our ‘selves’, where the forms originally associated with joy may become weapons or instruments of ‘righteous’ war, and slavery of thought. Truth is not reducible to forms - even 'holy forms' are reflections and expression of what is beneath form. In this sense 'Bible' (to one who receives guidance and illumination from it), would mean the direct communication of God to man - but it isn't a form in its own sake but a living covenant or relationship in the truth of the heart in which the one that thinks itself 'man' is restored to its True Relationship as God's Expression, of a kind with all that lives and is. This cannot be used in the world as a manipulative sense but that such relationship is lost to a world of form given meanings, which is our freedom to engage but not our true fulfilment.

How to reach the mind of those who love to hate? Or those who mistake abject slavery for freedom and security? One cannot speak to that which cannot hear. But in every encounter, we can desist from joining with it and validating it in our own mind – such as the grace of noticing and true desire brings. Judgement always rejects and withdraws, but the recognition of our own mind where we saw it as another allows healing of one's own mind - which naturally extends as invitation and gift to the other or the situation - to the degree their willingness accepts.

Nothing I have said here requires belief, but it may call for suspending a believing AGAINST. The power of the mind is witnessed in every experience and yet is invisible to those who know not what they do. It is not a mind of control that judges and lords it over our being – unless you establish that measure – and even then, only in your own mind-made experience - with those you can draw into collusion.

The prodigal does not come home to a trial and punishment – but to a True Remembrance – regardless of anything that he thought he thought or did. But ‘coming Home’ is precipitated by a rude or discomfiting awakening to a bankruptcy of self, through which the intuition of Life stirs and is given welcome, such as to be turned in purpose from demanding self-will to a willingness to truly serve. In the expression of this purpose is the servant replaced with the Original Nature; “My Son”.

I never did get to write about the fear of our own thought that became personified in stories of awakening as the deceiver – and then became a basis for stories of control.

I did notice that Santa is an anagram of Satan. Pretty much knocked the Divine Birth (the thirst for truth and its welcome), from Christmas.

We personify aspects of mind – by identifying with or rejecting, but they never in fact ever, leave the mind except in story. Release the guilt we ‘put out’ by asking truly within this very moment. Otherwise we seed and feed the very thing we hate, unknowing.
But what do we really hate? And is hating it actually helpful? Is this what we truly want?

One doesn’t have to believe in God to be healed, but one does have to put behind the wish the deceive oneself. Mind is never really locked or fixed but that belief has set it so, and beliefs can be changed or released. What we give our attention to is the chooser of experience and the layers of beliefs that filter and condition this can be released into a direct trust that brings forth a different experience – because it is of a different foundation and purpose.

Thankyou for your attention.

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