Uncovering wellness in place if iatrogenic disease loops

https://rxisk.org/pssd-patient-experiences/#comment-25794 

I connected with Dr Healy's work via my own re-educative willingness across the whole spectrum of presumed (directed and filtered) knowledge.

I am 64 and haven't taken and don't take pharma drugs for by far the greater part of my life - especially because events in my early adult life opened a psycho-physical appreciation of existence rather than a physically derived psychic assertion.

I have no doubt but that interventions in the electro-chemical pathways and balance of the body-mind can and does effect an off-balance adaptation such as to operate as a negatively reinforcing pattern of psycho-physical dysfunction.

In principle I see that we can lose our true alignment to errors, to crisis of fear and threat conflicts and attempts to mask or hide or deny these. I also see that we then often focus on what seems to be the cause of the iatrogenic disease along with the symptoms of its 'side' effect. This may be instead of focussing in realignment at the core - in life and in our life.

Realigning and reintegrating our self and life is a 'spiritual' or conscious purpose accepted at heart as a recognisable and at least partial willingness to notice and perhaps address or release the 'blocks' to an unconflicted self-awareness now. A key understanding being that the mind and body can be used and are used to hide or hide from relational conflict within self as between our self and others or world.

This is no less true of our collective or socio-political body-mind - which as an example has financial 'experts' hiding toxic debts (fraudulent consequences) in complex repackaging, as marketable financial assets or real currency.

This pattern is pervasive to our human psyche as the ingenuity of cleverness and deceit in avoidance. To take a search for 'psychological defences' and consider humanity the patient is to see we are structured in a negatively reinforcing loop of 'conflict management' in which sacrifice of the living is made to maintain the sustainability of the 'Model' and of course the priesthood and power structure of the model, worldview, mindset, or narrative identity.

And so I also see that there are those working to induce such sacrifice in Others  as their attempt to 'sustainability' as survival in their own frame of belief. Population control by stealth is part of a global human engineering project that is hidden in plain sight and under a broad spectrum dominance that uses the forms of human Good to both recruit sympathy and support while hiding agenda of power set over others and over life - which is a core pattern of a 'psycho-pathy' as a sense of possession and control running INSTEAD of and at expense of true relational being. Resulting as experience of dispossession and loss of command of our natural being.

Physical presence is a transparency to now - which is relational awareness. Loss of relational appreciation and response is a psychic-emotional substitution. Insofar as we manifest or meet 'blocks' to our growth and life they also operate some sense of defence, payoff or cover story of a lesser evil for something more greatly feared. Fear itself operates a block against exposure until there is willingness to see or perhaps re-vision what hidden fears dictate or deny.

Awakening as a willingness of self-responsibility for healing has to move past the grievance and identity in victim and its vindication in vengeance. This does not mean tolerating and persisting in injustice - but healing calls on the truth that heals while vengeance seeks to weaponise truth for the reciprocal sacrifice recompense or destruction of the perpetrator - and thus has investment in wound and grievance as a identity seeking righteously to reclaim worth.

There can be much hurt and hate in fear and rage in our sense of losing the life we thought was ours. All of which persist in robbing us of the life we are wholly worthy of  - now - but for the grace of noticing and the willingness to accept an alignment in appreciation. One moment at a time.

There are always more elements than the 'model' presumes. The human psyche is already a 'jack-in-the-box' of cultural and personal conflicts that can be triggered in multiple and various ways and lead a false trail from the certainty of being wronged or damaged by forces or powers outside our self.

I write from outside the 'box' but not without much personal experience of our psycho-physical conditioning - both pain of isolation and disconnect and joy of freedom in shared being. My sense of life is of embracing the first in the willingness of the second. My vision of human culture is of finding and growing support for a deeper self honesty than our current 'model' or identity is predicated upon, and allowing of - including our transparency to, and expression of love - in all our diversity and freedom of expression. IE: being truly ourselves, as the basis from which to extend worth-ship and with-ness. I hold that this is Un-covered in true willingness, rather than re-covered by struggle to regain a lost life, love or power. The experience of active willingness is in the abidance through the dynamic of conflict - and so may seem to be 'struggle within or against temptation of old habits that are being undone and replaced by new and consciously aligned choices - or acceptances.

A quantitative logjam or indeed breakdown of communication calls for a qualitative shift of priority and focus. To bring all and only what is needful together to our desire to live and share life - instead of old patterns of sustainability set against fear and threat of pain of loss.

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Accepting and acting on thoughts and beliefs offered us without truly checking in at the heart is a kind of 'running on auto-pilot' or indeed unconscious placement of trust outside ourself.

How do we ever learn but through recognising mistakes and correcting them by making better or more aligned choices?

Outsourcing power of decision (our core responsibility) is pervasive and conditioned by a collective cultural alignment in seeking autonomy in the form and frame of the body as both a weapon and separating shield. This is hidden by a surface normality that denies the undercurrent of psychic emotional conflict. Much 'breakdown' of order is of an incapacity to maintain sustainability of an imposed order counter to our core or original nature of being. But WHEN it happens - and however it happens - is the opportunity and indeed the Call to release what doesn't and cannot really work to the willingness of being found in what does.

If 'I cant do it!' was a simple FACT - then the attempt to persist the impossible would release to what is not only possible but already present - but displaced or discarded by the desperation of struggle that sets us against our own grain.

I find there is no talking to those who are still actively aligned to the 'model' as protection of a life set as an escape from conflicts rather than of a self-honesty of at least some willingness to own and embrace them towards finding better ways.

Addiction is to whatever enables NOT KNOWING what you (or anyone) is currently unwilling or indeed unready to know. Most addiction is socially internalised and invisible in a world where :

“Everything is BACKWARDS; everything is upside down! Doctors destroy health,  Lawyers destroy justice,  Universities destroy knowledge, Governments destroy freedom,  Major media destroys information, And religions destroy spirituality". (Michael Ellner)

My next step is to notice we are looking 'through a lens darkly' - that is through thinking that reverses or inverts cause and effect.

We generally have it all backwards. Stepping out of the 'group-think' is of course where 'there be dragons'.

The social, economic and political effects of insane premises

I appreciated this comment into a thread on the use, abuse or malign misuse of 'antipsychotic' drugs - that I would term anti-psyche drugs.

Sylvain June 9, 2017 at 7:16 am
As with the pharmaceutical industry, the fundamental reason for the distribution of neuroleptics by psychiatrists is economic.
1) Income
Prescribing neuroleptics takes a maximum of 1/4 hour per patient.
_ A psychotherapy session a minimum of 3/4 hour per patient.
By prescribing neuroleptics, the psychiatrist triple his income.
2) Social demand
By prescribing neuroleptics, the psychiatrist effectively solves a social problem in 70% of cases in the short term. This is the one and only thing the society asks of him.
3) Dependence
After some months of treatment, if the person stops gradually, the “relapse” rate is doubled for 18 months (Wunderink, 2007). If the person stops suddenly, the relapse rate is 75% in only 3 weeks.
By the neuroleptics, the psychiatrist is assured to retain a customer for many years. The legislation on forced and compulsory treatments plays exactly the same role.
The psychiatrist acts exactly like a street dealer and the state, instead of repressing the dealer, forces the drug addict to consume his toxic.
Addiction is not an undesirable effect for the psychiatrist: it is the very purpose of treatment.
Thus the question of neuroleptics is far from being exclusively scientific: it is above all an economic, political and social question.

The economic and political structure tends to define and frame perceived self interest so as to result in mind-share/market capture - and all of that is a form of mind control. The ideas generally under the heading of mind-control range from social engineering, PR, and narrative control - through to extremes such as MKUltra via the fragmentation of personality to program triggerable responses of otherwise suppressed or unconscious personality. In any case the nature of the control is coercive deceit.

Socialisation includes mind-control in all manner of ways - as part of induction and adaptation to a society predicated upon it as the means of the suppression of the feeling being and the limiting of consciousness to forms of substitution for genuine presence - and diversion from the inherent dissonance of a conflicted sense that becomes 'unconscious' while leaking out as undercurrent communication.

Coercion and deceit are part of the masking persona with which we become identified as our thinking - our core beliefs and accepted self-definitions which predicate our economic, political and social structures.

So an inability to maintain the mask of a kind of a mind-control already operating meets the energetics of guilted fear that operates a self-reinforcing negative. Now this is as true for the psychiatrist as the politician as the corporate, as the banker as the one whose life 'falls apart' or whose 'reality breaks down' or whose psychic-emotional conflicts overwhelm their capacity to manage their lives on their current basis.

However, mental illness - in the sense of psychic-emotional conflict - is crystallized in society AS society, AS an imposition of economic and political order. So waking up in self-responsibility from the prison of blame and shame is in one way or another stepping out of what seems a support network - even when it supports the sickness rather than the uncovering of health. This as true for a psychiatrist who loses the capacity to operate self-certainties of their own role, worth, world and meaning.

So I appreciate that what we see are the simple outcomes of the variables involved - and that while honesty of being is associated with penalty, sacrifice and loss it wont be taken up by directing more blame-hate at those whose perceptions confirm their beliefs - nor those who accept hurting or failing others is just part of the way power works.

So beneath the social realities are conflicted and conflicting unconscious beliefs that fragment our personae individually and collectively.

I see the demand for unconsciousness and the denial of consciousness as one event displaced to a fragmentation. They say 'be careful what you wish for' because you might get what you thought you wanted... and then wish to escape it.
But I say turn the wish or the pain of a wish denied - to a present willingness, a present receptivity to the movement of a true desire - which is recognized and felt directly as a sense of true connected being.

Who is not addicted to their own thinking? But socially acceptable addiction is invisible within its culture bubble. Awareness of the thinking rather than living as if in its bubble reality - grows the trust in an innate capacity to feel or discern a true resonance and join with what does, while releasing what does not - and bring curiosity to choices made or habits accepted that we say we do not want or that we recognize as being associated with painful consequence. Because there is more to uncover about what we actually believe beneath the masking defences beliefs inherently operate as part of bringing you the experience their perspective.

I articulate as words may but I could also say, "and an evil spell fell upon the minds of all who listened and believed they heard and received something new, something more and something special to this new sense of themself - such that they no longer remembered who they were - but through a distortion and no longer recognized themselves or each other in a world of their own personal sense of power - and the reflection of the use of such power in opposition, adversity, loss of support, betrayal, abandonment, malevolence and threat of pain, loss and death. Sometimes the righteous defender overrides the desperate but distorted attempt to regain a sense of selfworth, power or validity. But we all know the story - that seems to run itself and force us to play out its script - because we live its parts - however we mask or focus within some and hide (or hide in) others.

I feel the call to a culture of true support for being amidst an 'insane world'. So living that - anyway and in any way - is living from being - such as we are graced to notice, to accept and welcome by acting or embodying who we are - instead of struggling with who we are not. But of course we meet the insanity rather than operate over its suppression - and this is where the difference between my sense of self and reality - is recognizably out of true - though that knowing comes from a different sense of self than my thinking. But for me the device of hiding the insanity beneath the false flag of an evil ‘out there’ was not available though intensely felt - because something had woken in my life - as truly living - that I did not want to lose - even though I could not abide it or ‘handle it’ or fully accept and integrate it - all at once.
So I not only did not seek official ‘help’, for I did not want to be ‘put back’ into what I was before - nor did it occur to me to consider ‘medication’ - though for some time I was ‘unmanned’ (rendered helpless) by terror rising from loss of mind-control.
 But the ‘path’ that grew from a core recognition, grew in responsibility for fear in many of its forms of dysfunction - and over many years this ripened to a capacity to truly receive - and therfore share - in love. I’m not saying ‘happy ever after’ so much as Letting Life in and being aligned, guided and supported in being. And that this - whatever it may seem - is never a private outcome but is part of growing willingness in the world.

A community bus service calls in at all the various locations so that everyone has access. I see the same in our paths of development (intrapersonally) and relationally (interpersonally). For in love and truth these are two facets of one. But in my fear of withdrawal of support, I meet the ‘rejection’ or the ‘abandonment’ or even the ‘killer’ personality fragment of a match for something I am initially unaware of carrying. Of course they have their own scripts and shadow selves and the whole thing runs by reaction - such as to call on suppression and distanciation to limit the effects - while charging up the ‘engine’ of its expression beneath an assertive narrative identity/reality.

Different people need different approaches at different times of their life. Of myself I have said - looking back that “I was a hard nut to crack” - or that “it took whatever it took to bring me through to this present of feeling being - for although I clothe the meanings in words the gist is the meaning that is felt when the mind is a follower - not a leader. True desire is purposed on unified fulfilment - that attracts and aligns without coercion as an unfolding of fulfilment. Why waith for something to happen before you live the moment you have and are - even though it may contain elements of challenge and transformation or expansion to who you currently accept yourself to be.