Struggling to become is backwards

https://off-guardian.org/2020/05/17/the-online-double-bind/

Truth is not really out there but where your in-herence and out-there-ance meet.

Struggling to become is backwards but until we pause from futility it seems like the carrot can be reached or the stick escaped.

The outer focus is in process of attempt to replicate a control model of the inherent. To substitute a control system for life as an expression of victory or escape.

This is both mining insight for control while denying the truth of knowing and being known.

We are generally unaware of our own part in the 'control agenda' - not least from our capacity to fixate in perceptions of guilt and fear set in a cast of our own projections assigned or taken for the living.

Yes the lockdown itself could only be workable with the internet.

But I see an already patterning of self-separating consciousness replicating itself as an externalised extension with its own 'virtual identities'.

Resonant recognitions within living patterns are the nature of consciousness - while structures derived from this either support life or are released.

Note that the ego grabs what it thinks to possess and control and junks the rest.

But junk DNA turns out to be where the action is. Junk bacteria turn out to be our life support system and nothinged of Dark fudged 'Space' reveals itself as self-organising patterning of plasma that operates along qualities of resonant frequency domains whose quantised expression make up a minute percent of the physical universe that we call matter and assign to the laws of thermodynamics.

So the good news is the capacity to recognise a mistake or dead end or diversionary ploy and no longer operative. This leaves us free to ask true questions and take the journey of them.

To merely acquire information or narratives of identity is not growing character.

Watch your thoughts; they become words.

Watch your words; they become actions.

Watch your actions; they become habits.

Watch your habits; they become character.

Watch your character; it becomes your destiny. 

Lao Tzu

This applies no matter what the situation.

Can a dying man accept truth?

What we make of life or truth or love - is not what it is - but will determine how we experience.

Perhaps fear and deceit operate a role by which to engage in a 'special love', or proprietary 'truth' and a threatened and driven 'life'?

If there is a profound recognition that this is not my heart's desire, then I am free to re-align in what is - as the active willingness to engage it. Where you give attention is your choice. By this you create value and share it.

If you opened to hidden histories it is because your were ready to look and learn. But merely uncovering deceit is not in itself waking up - if leading always to deeper or more complex rabbit holes.

If control of the present is control of the past by means of imposing a substitute for presence into a future like the past, then releasing control of the present to an already moving presence allows an expansion of presence as life made new - that is free to draw on the past and future as a current appreciation or endeavour instead of being a blind product of a past made in fear and deceit.

Regardless the dark actors or agencies, I choose to align in truth we do not manufacture, cannot weapononise, marketise or war over, one day at a time and in a sense one moment at a time. What is truth if it does not release us of our illusions?