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Thinking that is disconnected from the felt sense and presence of life as wholeness, flow, be-ing, is like an overlay of experience and identification, running as a virtual reality but lived as real.
To challenge the experience of a world and a self within it that runs as a reversal of the felt or intuited qualities of Life, is to be willing to be innocently curious.
For the seduction of a sense of self as a personal power to determine its own meanings and become something in its own right, is an addictive sort of game in Mind that runs like a trapped mind in ever densifying conflicts, evasions and denials.
While we are actively engaging such purpose in identity, we are virtually blind to the Unified Nature of (Our and All) Being, and experience the Self-Same-Thing as a polarized and self-conflicting perspective, due to the lens of the thought that is held by a wish to see Everything differently; in the framework of an 'as if'.
Feel the utterly convincing power of the reality of this moment as it communicates all that is now - right where you are - (as the awareness of your being), and realize that Mind is not the little thinker in its little experience. Mind (for want of a better word) is the Always Source, Nature and Condition of all experience.
Even as programs have sub routines which have subroutines or as folders on your computer can be deeply nested within folders within their own parent folders, our human consciousness is inherently an expression of a Source that it has been programmed initially to look out and away from. And looking 'upstream' or intuiting our Source, is inherently taboo to the structures of the mind that maintain the continuity of focus that we take as our consciousness.
Hence thinking will always tend to express and support a sense of self that is experience over and against - or differentiated from its experience. This perpetuates the dream of a separated existence and while this is the active desire, all is running as has been set in motion even if the content of the experience itself is distressing, felt to be out of control and suffering victim-hood.
But in opening experientially to receive the wholeness of our current experience - that is, as a 'beholding awareness' in a trust that is free from defining or manipulating its consciousness-experience, we release the conditions which block a true or innate Purpose from acting through us.
In simple terms, the Purpose of Mind or Being is 'Know Thy Self'.
The Self of Universal Being is not the programmed 'self' of the limited mind in a body bag and It does and is Knowing Itself in All That It Is.
Because we associate 'self' with control, we seem to become a mask in a carnival ride, but even so does a mind know itself through its thought-experience.
Thoughts that reflect a fragmented and conflicted dissonance - even if seeming to express a prevailing righteous will, make their experience of self and world.
But thoughts that embody and reflect truth - that are not defined or manufactured by a manipulative imagination, serve to release distorting influence and restore a natural communication of the whole in all its parts.
The attempt to add to oneself as defined is the predicate of loss and suffering. But the realisation of the wholeness through the relations of its parts is the awakening to the Condition in which all things are given because they are not withheld.
Any attempt to articulate the Unspeakable - to define what cannot be separated from in any way and so cannot be imaged or made object or conceived - is bound to participate in the imagination of a separate one. But in the Intent to awaken, it can also serve as a breadcrumb trail or an Ariadne's thread.
To feel one's intuitive sense stirring, is an awakening. To honour and value it is to align to it rather than exploit it. To notice that one exploits rather than loves, is an awakening. To release the exploitive will is to receive and be restored to Universal Will.
I once thought I was an explorer, but I was on the run, and that was my cover. What we are afraid of, programs us, and hides the traces of the program. To be afraid of love is to be afraid of the loss of control, of personal freedom, and the capacity to think and do separate. All this is true - but such thinking doesn't know
the joy of being an agency of Shared Thought - of a communioned sense of shared purpose, of a rested awareness in which an indivisible peace allows all that is needed, to be known.
But we do have glimpses of these things, in inspiration, in working together, in moments of wonder and appreciation.
If this isn't our natural experience, we blame externals - the human condition. But the opening of Mind to its true nature is a call for awakening responsibility for our thought.
Thank you for your attention