You never know

 https://off-guardian.org/2021/02/05/you-never-know/

'Don't know' mind is open enough for life to feel and move.

'Think we know works' active ignorance.

Discernment feels with beginner's mind.

Always ready to begin now with where we are.

We we think we are has the stamp of a past seeking a future like itself.

Narrative continuity sets filters and rules; terms and conditions.

Thinking, like computer modelling, is only as fitting as relates truly to what is truly moving.

We have become backwards.

As if life must fit the rules and systems and narratives.

If this is so, and I see it is so, the way we have become normalised to thinking is of giving 'cause' to the effects and symptoms of conflict and disease, grievance or fear, as if causal agents in and of themselves.

But we don't have to understand so much to recognise that our aligning in truth of life as we each feel and recognise it, needs us present and awake to where our centre is peace and where we can so easily lose it or throw it away to what is not helpful and gets in our own way and leaves us open to self-conflict, that undermines and is dispiriting and depressing.

The inner life is of the non physical as psychic emotional 'territory' that is always part of our experience, but often masked out of direct awareness.

The demand to keep a lid on our feeling being is its own kind of lockdown, distancing and masking over - because there is unfinished or unresolved issues within our life and mind that may be covered over but have not really gone away.

Being with deeply disturbing thought and feeling can become psychotic or dissociative without a connected sense of relational presence.

That we can extend love to another is not in doubt to the giving and receiving, and yet doubt of our own being leads to the masking in virtue to cover the fear we have none or deserve less. The very young may take on the 'stuff' of their family and world, to adopt all kinds of unspoken patterns of unresolved exclusions and denials. In this sense there are patterns that come down the generations. But recognising what is truly ours and what is not, is the basis to release futility set in impossible burdens.

Self-evasion is the pattern of addiction to external diversion and displacement.

But there is a world we meet from a wholeness brought TO relationships, rather than using them for the presenting and reinforcing of a masking over our true feeling being - though on other levels that does 'communicate' anyway as some sense of withholding or judgemental distance.

The attraction of fear and guilt is its capacity to get identity reinforcement against the evil, the threat, the outsider, the denier, the hate target.

Masking identity seeks more control and reinforcement for the mask, to make you safe - in the terms it was invoked and set. That is does not actually work shall become a basis to release it to a willingness to re-evaluate what we thought we knew and who we thought we were and took our world to be.

When we tried all that doesn't work and couldn't work, we may come at last to what we didn't want to have have to look at, as a willingness to look with new eyes.