Cells, Zooms and Meetings

 I feel to say that I remain free to communicate with others in any way I am moved and open to being in communication.

The use of the word 'group' is quite different in a room than in a fragmenting and compartmentalised message medium that lacks the living contextual communication of a glance, a posture, a smile.

Even in physical groups, the dynamic can subjugate freedom to projections of exclusion issues such as to set up group correctness rather than bring wholeness to the relationship with each and all.

If there are online conversations along the lines of or referring to political or social action, then it is to be expected that they are not private on zoom or necessarily anywhere as digitally conveyed information. There is also the liability of a 'group identity' that transferring the acts or assigned intent of one or some members to others by association, and at the extreme end the ability to manufacture, incite or set up such acts or events to smear and delegitimise a movement's broader aims and desires in the public mind. There is nothing new in that. It is part of the way the system works.

I find in writing this here that I am fundamentally aligned to a spiritual or reintegrative movement in life and not a reactive sense of grievance seeking redress or vendetta. I also feel that sharing in a true support is universal as an expression of a humanity, and that living this is the willingness to learn it - albeit under conditions of compression, constraint and limitation that are also serving self-knowledge in ways that I feel call on a need for spiritual support. The word 'support' like all words can be applied to supporting our 'ego' of masking that works against recognising and living who we are, and thus part of virtue signalling 'sympathies' that mask over unowned conflicts. So I use reintegration as a sense of support for aligning in an integrity of our being as distinct from our presentations of who we think we want to be or 'should be' - and the attempt to get reinforcement for our narrative by changing others to 'support' a group bubble or anti-mainstream bubble.

I have not engaged an anti-persona as if natural life MUST or SHOULD be politicised. The freedom to be who I am is of course within my own responsibility of acceptance if not yet always willing readiness, but relationships are the context for giving and receiving and therefore living and sharing. No man is an island, complete unto himself. Nor can love be locked down and still be and know itself.

In practical terms there is a right and natural discipline to not break trust in anything confidential in potentially open platforms such as zoom. And a process of self-revealing and appreciation of others through this or any other mediums.

Do you want to be known as your mask? -  or for who you are?

There is a tension between the two that can conflict such that a sense of self-lack seeks to cover itself with a mask of acquired status in terms of protecting fear of losing face, exposure, invalidity etc. We all learned in the school playground and before, to mask our true feeling or state of being.

So for me Life is already here and is innately 'self-organising' as cells and filaments and the capacity to zoom into focus within its living network of Communication (at all levels) - and so to be 'zoomed' into the human condition-ing at this time in this place is part of Who and What I Am - with all that Is. But I am not looking to usurp or replace Life with my own structure of meanings or narrative identity, so much as re-align to what runs beneath the mask, and beneath the fears that the mask is invoked to hide, protect and then hide in - under narratives of overcoming or escaping the feared and hated 'evils' that are perhaps unthinkable and intolerable to abide.

So here's me this morning. After sharing a morning inspiration with my Companion in Life and skimming through lockdown sceptics for the occasional resonance amidst the zeitgeist of an ant's nest set in chaos.

True resonance is where I see the Communication that aligns all things truly. If fear and reaction can manipulate the 99% to force the false, it will be temporary and at great cost in pain and loss. In most simple terms this aligning in resonance is living as willingness for being, as distinct from an actively wilful ignorance that finds 'proof' for its narrative no matter what anyone says or does or what evidences arise.

Keeping the heart open as the guide and support for thought and focus is not letting the mind wander or be phished into its own spin - amidst the 'temptations' or triggers to 'lose it' at every turn.

Locking down the mind into narrative identity is a conditioning that operates as if actual concrete conditions. That there is another way of looking at this may never dawn on the mind in its own thinking until some sort of 'bottoming out' happens. In this way I have to embrace my experience of compression as activating the growing of the Seed of Life.

It can often feel like dying, but what is accepted and what is released is the process of realigning, and when the timing aligns as synchrony of willingness, Life Happens and knows itself being. Without this quality of awareness is a dead fiction running in its Whole Name. But the attempt to do this does not and can never work anything but delay to a sense of invested identity that we still 'make a world of' and struggle in as if it can be won.

Except of course when we forget or neglect to activate and animate the masking defence as a result of holding for and creating the conditions of trust where armouring falls off by itself. But this has to be a living being and not a blind contract - else we put trust in systems and rules in place of a current discernment and become automata.

No one ever knew how to DO real 'relationships', but honouring the movement of our own being allows meeting - or not - from where we are. This is the 'world' I feel towards, and apparently 'not meeting' or agreeing now, is not a lack of appreciation for another to find and follow their own way in their own way.

Tuning into the Signal.

Tuning out the Noise.