Conscience, self-betrayal and fear masking in virtue

https://off-guardian.org/2020/05/28/medical-professionals-and-scientists-for-health-freedom-and-democracy/#comment-180925 

I am totally into tuning in for guidance. I usually invoke the heart's recognition as a result of stilling the mind so as to watch or see the mind -in-act rather than be running its reactions.

But you keep invoking your conscience as if either its all about you, or all according to your sense of right and wrong? I wasn't writing to you personally but expressing my view to the theme. If that releases you from responding as if I am asking or telling you something specifically - then you are of course already free!

I see the mind of judgement of good and evil as the cause of the loss of true awareness to a masking persona.

Fear and hatred of evil drives a masking 'mind'. This is simply evident - unless the fear is active when it is NOT evident.

Though it is a bit more involved, and relates to our primitive survival response taking over, when the heart and mind is set incoherently in fear - which carries the potential for shifts to new perspectives where the old strategies don't apply, BUT... if the new is blocked or feared and resisted, a revert to the old pattern is the re-iteration of the past on the future as indeed Orwellian Big Brother's Boot. We can do this to ourself - and can observe that we do it, readily.

I didn't take issue with you on your conscience - why would I? - you are free to choose as you will. But you bring it up as if fear, hatred and masking the hate behind fake virtue is not going on. What is a mask for? Hiding in or hiding from transparency.

So for you perhaps, fear and hatred and a need to be right, or claim the right by making others wrong - plays no part of your life, because you are guided without distortion or bias of fears, old grievances or hatred of violence etc? 

My point is that by far the most of fear is unconscious, culturally masked and normalised by collective evasions and filters, and is kept so my the bubble of virtue signalling - that 'knows it is right' by the wrongs it has received, and therefore doesn't have to unmask, engage or re-evaluate its judgements.

Amongst other things, I see the agenda that covid is a key part of, as leveraging unconscious fear, hate and shame, as a consolidation of control set in power over life on earth. But in doing so, fear and its deceits are brought into awareness. Even if many retreat deeper into a lockdown and lockstep allegiance, with an attempt to impose control or put the lid back on - in some tighter and denser and more unconscious mask against relationship. In that sense 'A control agenda' is calling its Own - if you are not called - don't follow. Listen for what truly calls you. Perhaps your conscience is the guide to hearing and acting from the Voice of your truth - as your willingness to love truth and honour the truth of love?

My sense of conscience is in recognising another as myself and myself in another. It is not in moral codes - though when these are rooted in the heart I recognise the heart.

Moral codes like any system can substitute for a real or living relationship.

By pandemonium I meant 'house of demons'. It was coined as an opposite to the Pantheon.

The difference between either recognising the force of life and centring in balance within its movement, OR fearing, blocking and denying it, is the difference between heaven and hell. It isn't the force that is different, but our perception-response or conscious responsibility. Demonising unrecognised life is what fear 'creates' when unattended or running as a system on autopilot.

Otherwise fear would wake us up rather than drive deeper to illusion. (I know some will go either way, and some try to lock down and find they cant live with themself in self-betrayal).

So I thinkI have bridged to where you are in many ways - have I not?

I don't actually do judgement of people (Dr Buttar or others) as a basis for identifying with what they say or do. I recognise the spirit through their willingness regardless any distortions or limitations and I join in spirit and celebrate the light. The mind of judgement is - I repeat-  the problem as I see it, for it polarises good v evil in shifting ways to suit its own survival, identity, self-justification or sense of continuity. And yet until another point of reference opens, its division rules out a conscious basis for choice. In this sense it is fear defined rather than released of such to a discernment of who you are. My link was to a collective willingness that manifested a real medical conference through Dr Buttar. Many are very quick to idolise and that is the mind of the problem.

To align as who you are, requires no justification or apology to anyone. But to present as who you are not will seek all or any pretext for its support and reinforcement. It is inherently threatened by truth and works to mask against exposure. There is no peace in it. It cost the peace of knowing and aligning our own heart. Perhaps you call that alignment 'conscience'.

Self betrayal will surely generate self-hatred and self-denial of self-blocking conflict scripts that generate deep and terrible fear. I do not speak from books.

Fear is rooted in self-conflict - projected or cast OUT - as a way to persist in the sense of self in its ideas while compartmentalising or discarding dissonances - out from self.

Of course they are not forever got rid of and we are obliged to reintegrate - and release what does not belong together - with the core being the true of who we are - and not the self-illusions we may have acquired or invested in under times of expansion.

We are now moving into extreme compression - which can be likened to a crash course in spiritual discipline or conscious responsibility for thought, feeling and response. Otherwise a crash is just a crash. A way to suffer, pain and loss in death that seemed to reach for life but fell away or was stamped on by a Protector who betrayed. Perhaps because its employ was born of a self-betrayal seeking to hide?