in response to the themes in:
https://tessa.substack.com/p/john-stockwell-old-interview
The question 'how real is our reality' is not asked by those who are 'asleep' in the wish, fear and belief it IS reality.
(To actually question reality would be a relational willingness to receive answer - not a private validation of strategic models of masking adaptation to social & environmental or structural dictates. But the 'It' of an objectified exclusion is already the breakdown of such an intimacy of being).
Questioning reality is a result of re-cognising - at some level - that wishes are misdirected, fears are NOT escaped or overcome and belief is an INSIDE job - that maintains a status of believability by mutual reinforcement. In this sense we 'make a world' that is then our personal and cultural relationship with a 'cast out' and denied Self.
A whole is centred in all its parts, and Reality is your gift, to give and receive of That You Are.
In seeking and finding an 'experience' of self-specialness is our way of 'forgetting' already whole - to seek it outside or apart From a sense of what we are not, set in fear and lack, as a basis for getting or boosting self made in image - blind to its source-nature by the grasping at substitutions that cannot work, but can provide means for a covert identity to run within the entanglement of love in fear - and fear in love, as a mind of conflict. Love is whole by extension. As are You.
In a sense the script is written - and Answered, but we are each and together in our unfolding consciousness of experience - even if we think this limits or defines Life of Source-Nature - to seem a thing-in-itself, born to suffer and to die a life made meaningless.
Waking within the dream is not part of its script, but an 'awakening script' that runs as answer where the problem is believed to be. Covid reveals that the reaction of defence needs only a ruse, not a real threat, and a strategy of self-imaged control needs enemies lest defences fall away of themselves.
With our entanglement of victim & perpetrator - where each can shift to the other and back in an instant of righteous vengeance or misdirected attempts to get love or power for a mistaken sense of self - we meet choices. Some are false means to the same end and serve to protect from seeing or knowing the unwanted or that which we are as yet unwilling and unready to see. Others are a recondition of a true from a false outcome where a willingness of self-honesty comes to see only a false choice released for a restoration of true that aligns whole as unselfconscious presence extended through whatever we be and do.
Coming to clearly accept that we do not want what a lie seems to offer is like the addict releasing the mindset of the control & dependency to Let Life In. We may pass through conflict over and again, but keep something in back of mind as an exception. The exception to truth is the wish & belief that the illusion may yet offer what truth cannot. And yet in truth, giving is the means for having, while in illusion, getting SEEMS to get away with it, for a time that cannot but be fraught with fear of pain of loss.
So we are meeting our gift - even though we have learned or trained our mind to outsource creative to Other, to It, and to an 'alien will' that is not at Home but seeks to steal it from you.
Wherever you go - there you are. But which 'script' are we actively living out - the separative self-sense or the willingness to heal - that is Let Healing Be (revealed).
Nothing is as we think, but what we think can align with who and what we (already) are, or mask over and obfuscate. Heaven doesn't forbid any thought, but as a state of wholeness, is without conflict, and so the addiction to the 'dynamic' of conflict in the fascination of horror, holds us in a gaze of futility that - but for limited tolerance for pain - would never find release.
The application of insight to a world of social masking as if to leverage or impact a 'better' outcome is where good intentions mask for a desire to use insight or truth as a weapon or a marketing ploy in the script of (struggle for) possession and control.
Abide with the Life revealing Within, to allow a natural expression of an integrative act to come not of our own making. The 'uncarved block' represents a foundation - as does a virgin birth - at a level a manufactured self and reality cannot recognise or understand. But love is the nature of communication and relationship - no matter the distorting or corrupting effect of a substitute 'love' given identity, power and protection.
